There had been another him, more than once. He knew that. He could almost remember that other life. A prior life. This existence was cyclical. His mind roiled within the plane-space of his deepest mind. Memories of existences appeared as suddenly as they entered his consciousness, like imprints of cards being shuffled in a deck. His mind struggled to cling onto sensory inputs, recoiling from one disjointed moment to the next. He tried to interpolate the things he was experiencing, hoping for things to come together into a continuous motion picture, like the zoetropes his mother had commissioned for him when he was a boy. But each montage was more sickening than the last. He was jerked from the ecstacies of once-in-a-lifetime pleasures to intolerable lightning-strikes of paining. He went from holding his third-born son, to having his innards eviscerated by a rioting mob of peasants to conceiving his firstborn son, ever second as disconnected from the last as it was the next. To his immense displeasure, he found himself deeply relieved when Tojira removed him from his torturous dream-sleeve. His psyche birthed out onto the great, four-dimensional miasma of the Blind Eternities. He consumed space, ravenous and friction-less like a cloud of impulses and emotions undergoing infinite molecular mitosis in an infinite vacuum. His thought-form slipped in and out through the incorrigible elemental chaos. Thin, oily, impermanent, non-linear smears of him leeched all around the un-reality which engulfed Tojira. He was free, unbound by Law, whether it be originated by Nature, God, or Man frame. Hell, the Abyss, the Dark Citadel, even the perverse alternate-reality of Phyrexia tried to snap out at him, each desperate to consume him, like predators driven simple by starvation, but his thought-form was too tough and elastic. Where it did get caught within the non-euclidian jaws of a demon, the teeth rebounded, and the flesh did not stick. Devils tried to trap him within logic-tricks, technically-legal soul-contracts, and binding oaths, but his soul was too slick, too loose, and too resilient. The greased gears of diabolical infrustracture simply took him through impossible gear ratios, lubricated by his own incapacity for permanent function in this form, and he slipped out at all the gaps, borders, and edges. Through Tojira's psychic prodding, his Vril poured into place, slowly filling a mould in the shape of him as he drained in, towards his own heart, and dazzling, incomprehensible riot of liquid color slowly solidifying into a man. He was not a terrible man. Far from it, he was actually quite handsome, a jawline perfected and accentuated by Tojira's fondness for the way it worked when he was under stress. His forearms, so often flexed tightly as he gripped a longsword so tightly that his knuckles threatened to burst through his skin, were veined and lean. Her memories of him were defined by the way he appeared to her in confrontation, and she liked them that way. He had always been so striking, glaring down at him through the open visor of his elk-antlered steel-helm. His eyes tilted slightly upwards at the edge, giving him the look that a wolf has when its prey has almost escaped. The rush of his muscles over-powering her as she struggled to get away, to cast the final component of some sick, black-magic ritual... his sweat, beading on her skin as she focused the last reserves of her concentration on finishing her terrible scheme... "I really wish you wouldn't." His voice interject sharply, cutting outwards from the inside of her mind. "You know I remember." Tojira sighed. The realm around them had coalesced into a cozy cave of primordial, colorless mana. She exhaled a long, sighing breath. She fell back, and the nothingness below her changed into a soft bed of pilfered silks and cushions, some still stained with the blood of the prior owners. "Why must you spoil our love?" She bemoaned. His soul-form tightened around itself and seethed with red mana. "There is no love in imprisonment."
Tojira pouted, intentionally letting her grasp on the field of mind-carved reality loosen. He leaked everywhere, up-down, left-right, in-out, past-future. Demons and Devils and Aboleths and Angels lapped at his emissions, drinking his richness in as he slipped away from himself. Panic rose inside him, and his soul lashed back out towards Tojira, a drowning man thrashing at his would-be savior. She warmly swaddled him inside her darkness, wrapping him back into the shape of him. She receded from him and gazed upon her tribute to his being. She grinned like she was getting away with something, and he fell back into her, portions of himself glomming onto her like they were hydro-statically bonded. His arcane momentum carried him through her, launching out the other side of her thought-form, but retained and recollected within the surface-tension of her soul. He recoiled like a shot back into the very core of her being, then slowed impossibly quickly, until his essence crawled its way back out her front-face, like molasses filtering through tar separating in slow-motion. He felt every second of her countless lifetimes. He saw her in ways that sickened him, and yet the depths of her heart had his pounding with excitement. He experienced every moment of her, and she every moment of him. The entire time, she grinned like a perversely hungry lynx, never taking her third eye off his. She drank in his disappointment, arousal, hatred, longing, surprise, approval, jealousy, and confusion like it was honeyed-wine served ice-cold on a remote isle. His soul blistered in the heat of her love's furnace. Her desire compressed and tore him like tectonic plates. He couldn't breathe within her, but he didn't need to. She reached into him and extracted his memories of the others, the Goddess, the Whore, the Doll. She tossed them aside like rotten clumps of rot-saturated bog-mud, the core of the psychic-resonance drained from the inside out into the thirsting eyes within her palms. She vomited deeply inside of him, pouring herself into him through her own throat, infiltrating him as she turned inside out. Every sin, every sacrifice, every slaughter, every slight passed through him, and he couldn't even gag to trigger an ejection. He tried to sob, but her hands reached out from his mouth and wiped his tears. She hushed him from within his own chest, curling up within the void left behind. He couldn't even recall what she had taken. The faces of... of... women? More than that. They were... her contempt and betrayal flared, deep within his gut. She tried to crawl back out of him, her scalding fingertips digging into his esophagus, but he swallowed her. He began to ingest her, intoxicated and poisoned by her corrupting form. He screamed wordlessly, his shrieking, rasping exaltation of agony rending the flesh of demons and cracking the bones of devils. The extraplanar predators shrank away into the shadows of their home-realms, no longer stretching the membrane of the Blind Eternities inwards. He fought to keep her down, but eventually vomited, ejecta and spent mana projecting outwards from his gullet. The disgusting fluids clung to her skin like afterbirth, and she wailed. He felt un-reality slip away from him, his soul hollow and relieved, purged of the torment, cleansed of the burden of what once was. He collapsed, exhausted and pleasantly surprised by the comfortable empty feeling that began to overcome him from within. She wept as he sank into the flesh of the Astral Realm, and he felt his soul collapse back in on itself, shrinking to an infinitesimal mote of stardust that nestled comfortably within the undeveloped amygdala of his next incarnation. He knew he would see her again soon enough. And yet, he quickly forgot all that he knew about her. It was... peace. It was warm. Eventually, words had never before been formed within his mind.
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Blood soaked through his mailed gauntlet and warmed his hand. It was a brisk winter night, and the sand dunes glimmered under torchlight, alight with chaos and the roar of war. Kenrith loved crusading. There was a singular clarity to it: bringing justice to the foul goblinoids, purging them from the holy land, righting the imbalance of the world. It was his divine right, and his supreme pleasure.
The wind carried the scent of smoke and scorched earth, mingling with the metallic tang of blood. Across the dunes, Alaborn soldiers moved like clockwork, disciplined and unwavering, their armor clinking with a rhythm that mirrored Kenrith’s heartbeat. Behind them, the Steam Catapults belched fire, hurling stones and molten chains into the enemy ranks. Above, Armored Griffins circled, their sunbleached-white feathers cut through the starry night sky like blades of snow, just as their keening hunting screeches penetrated the din of combat below.
Kenrith tightened his grip on his longsword, feeling the pulse of righteous fury coursing through his veins. Every swing was justice made manifest. Every probing strike was in pursuit of retribution. Every critical blow that let loose a geyser of reeking green blood was vindication. The goblins shrieked, scattered, and fell beneath the relentless discipline of Alaborn’s forces. And yet, even amid the carnage, there was order, a pattern of life and death orchestrated by law, duty, and faith.
He glanced at the Temple Acolytes behind the front lines, their staves glowing with a soft, restorative light. They whispered prayers of courage and protection, bolstering the morale of the weary soldiers. Even in the heat of slaughter, they offered the promise of mercy, of resurrection for those who had fought bravely.
Kenrith’s eyes narrowed as he spied a band of goblin raiders attempting to flank the Volunteer Militia. With a war cry, he surged forward, the snow crunching under his boots, steel singing in the cold air. Every motion was precise, every blow an expression of Alaborn’s enduring will. He was a conduit for justice, honor, and the unshakable belief that the kingdom’s divine mandate would prevail, no matter the cost.
Kenrith’s gauntlet still bore the warmth of blood when he entered the tent, the smell of winter, fire, and iron clinging to him like a second skin. A fire crackled in the hearth, throwing long shadows across the tapestry-lined walls. The Temple Elder stood near the center, his robes immaculate, his hands folded in measured disapproval.
“You would dare,” the Elder said, voice trembling with a mixture of fear and exasperation, “to bend the traditions of Alaborn to the whims of outsiders? Talas, dwarves, these foreign artificers… their machines and engines are profane. They will corrupt the balance of our kingdom. For thousands of years, Alaborn has sustained its way of life, its order, without bending to such… chaos!”
Kenrith removed his helm, letting the cold wind seep into his hair, his eyes gleaming with the fire of certainty. “My ancestors were good kings,” he said evenly, though the power in his voice made the Elder flinch. “They defended the kingdom, upheld the law, preserved the faith. But I am not my ancestors. I am Kenrith, I have Returned, and this cycle... This cycle I have returned with the intent to not merely sell my life dearly. I am going to buy the lives of the wretched masses of sinners, evil-doers, and vile races cheaply, like an Icatian moneychanger stealing a deed out from under the nose of an aged crone. I will not fight today’s war with yesterday’s tools. Alaborn will endure, not by clinging to what has worked in the past, but by adapting to what must work now.”
The Elder’s lips pressed into a thin line. “And yet… you speak as if you remember… things that none of us have seen. Past lives? Esoteric visions? This is heresy in its own way.”
Kenrith’s jaw tightened. “I cannot explain it to you. You would not understand. My mind has glimpsed the currents of what was, what is, and what may come again. In each cycle, the end comes. Armageddon will not wait for tradition. It will not pause for the sanctity of old ways. We must be ready, Elder. For this end, this cycle, I will see Alaborn prevail.”
The Elder’s eyes narrowed, a storm of disapproval and fear. He opened his mouth, then closed it again, unable to articulate a rebuttal that could reach across the gulf of experience and memory that separated them. Kenrith could sense the Elder’s confusion. The inability to perceive the quasi-memories, the faint echoes of futures that had already occurred in other lives eluded the old man, and Kenrith felt neither pity nor regret.
“We adapt,” Kenrith continued, his voice rising to fill the tent. “We take what works from Talas, from dwarves, from wherever it may be found. Every siege engine, every innovation, every stratagem that gives us the edge will be ours. And when the end comes, as it always does, we will not be caught unprepared.”
He replaced his helm, the leather biting into his brow, and the firelight glinted off the polished metal. Outside, the snow swirled across the dunes, obscuring the battlefield, but Kenrith saw clearly. In his mind, he traced the paths of victories and defeats, of battles that had not yet occurred, of wars that would come again. He would be ready. Alaborn would be ready.
Armageddon was coming. This time, he would not be caught by surprise.